What was I thinking
I would consider a regret something that you did not learn from. Something that brought no value to you at all. For instance if I knew about drugs, did them anyway and lost my job, I’d certainly regret trying them. You could argue I “learned” my lesson, but I already knew the affects beforehand. I don’t have regrets because all of the things I did whether with others or by myself I learned from because I was naive.
Sometimes I look back on certain events; or maybe a series of events and get angry. I think “how could I have done that!” or.. “What an idiot I was”. Then I can’t let myself get too angry because I realize that those events shaped my personality. If they were shitty things that happened–I’ve learned from them. To say this would make me seem intelligent and “noble”. Little things along the way add up. I think that’s why old people are considered “wise”. Except they get so old they usually start to forget, or simply don’t have the desire to give a rat’s behind. One part of life that perplexes me is the “succeed” part. How do you know when you’re there? So many goals, wishes, wants that by the time you’ve accomplished 3 or 4 things you’re already working toward another 10. I don’t see this as something negative but I have a strange feeling that’s why some people are just never happy no matter what they have. I would tell anyone there are 3-4 factors that contribute greatly to one’s happiness:
1. Physical and emoitonal health/stability
2. Social Stability (friends and family support)
3. Financial stability ($$$$$$$$)
These may not be everyone’s top 3 but they are certainly mine. If I have all 3 of these things it seems the rest is whipped cream and cherries (well, minus cherries since I hate them).
I think it’s easy to lose track of what the basics are to make you happy. If you’re feeling down or depressed, take a look at all the things you DO have. If you want more, go get them. Don’t complain.
I’m not interested in being a teacher yet. I think I’ll be a perpetual student until I pax out.
